Interested by your notes on the effects of the Neptune/Chiron/Jupiter on your Venus complex in Aquarius…since May 2008 Neptune et al have been squaring my natal Venus in Scorpio (24′31″). I have to laugh like a madwoman at the astrology books that tell me Neptune is so subtle you wouldn’t notice it!

As Neptune stationed, 16″ from the approaching square, to natal Venus, I was on holiday. Walking towards an art gallery when I was confronted by a young man – the vision of perfect loveliness. The artist in fact. Fell in love (a bit obsessively – it is a Scorpio Venus after all…)

I fantasised the whole time, bought his paintings (of ballerinas…)loaned him money, found him a place to live…and, despite 25 years plus studying astrology, refused to believe he was anything but wonderful. During the retrograde period it wore off. The emptiness I felt made me realise there were big issues I needed to address in my marriage. I’m now separated…

And after separation? a short relationship with a man with serious addictive personality issues – much easier to identify this time around , I removed myself from the relationship very quickly – but not before I had fallen in love with another man (again with a heavy Neptune signature) and equally unrealistic expectations on my part – the boundaries between love , sex and friendship are unclear at best, barriers are constantly being erected and demolished, a process needless to say not in my control!

As Neptune approaches my Venus for the final time, what is emerging from the fog is this: it is my attitude towards men and relationships that needs refining, (redflagged in my birthchart incidentally by the exact Sun-Neptune conjunction in Scorpio, which is part of very bothersome T-square with Moon conjunct Saturn exactly conjunct my Aquarian MC and opposed by Mars in Leo).

But it’s actually more than this, love, values, finances – all Venus associations in fact, need ‘grounding’ in some way, to be made real and responsible; illusions need to go! During this same period, my spending on shoes, cosmetics and lingerie has also been….Neptunian!

One thing – as the transit nears it’s end I can take heart from other major transit experiences (Saturn hitting every point on my T-Square – detailed above – was one helluva learning process a few years ago)

When the mist clears, things will be different if you let them – it’s only by refusing to let go of worn out parts of your life that the pain continues…( and maybe this is the healing bit – Jupiter and Chiron having their say…) so why am I still yearning for a perfect love? So much so I have now joined a dating website. It’s called ‘Soulmates’ – how Neptune transiting square Venus is that? You would not believe the numbers of Pisceans, models photographers, film editors, keen sailors and former addicts looking for love…

Sorry for the long one…have to go now as I have Mars stationed in my 4th for the next 6 months – where he will no doubt declare war on my T Square…

Also Saturn trining my Moon, Natal Saturn and the MC, for the same six months…

Did I mention Uranus’ final transiting trine to Venus? Oh yes…

Ciao!

Thanks so much for your kind words! It really means a lot that you’ve been able to relate so much to what I’ve written. I’m constantly working to present my own experience in terms of astrology in a way that it can be useful to readers and encourage them to do the same thing with their own charts, and it’s always nice to get reinforcement that it’s actually serving that function. I do really like your suggestion- I’ve thought about putting up my natal chart for that very purpose, in case someone else might catch something I didn’t. Part of me is slightly afraid that it might be almost too personal- while the Pluto part of me is fine with that, the Pisces part of me has to learn to draw the line somewhere. But I’ll definitely consider it, since there are a lot of major ingresses and aspects coming up soon.

p.s. I did take a look at your chart, and I can TOTALLY see what you mean. Those are some intense T-squares. Still, though, having a Moon-Neptune conjunction in Sagittarius and a Sun-Uranus inconjunct has got to be kind of fun by themselves!

I’ve been following your blog for several months now and just wanted to let you know that it is excellent! I’m struck by the seeming similarities in our personalities/life situations and really enjoy your witty, intelligent, and “tell-it-like-it is” point of view. I also relate because I myself am a young astrologer and feel that you your are definately a true “kindred spirit”! I was recently looking at some of your achived posts where you had mentioned having two T-squares natally – if you think that’s challenging, plug in this info and have yourself a good laugh: 6/17/1981 2:26pm Newtown CT USA. See why I can sympathize? I would say it’s a definately a “character builder”(ha-ha). It’s been a blast reading about your experiences and the zesty, animated way you express your substantial knowledge of this subject. You’re smart, articulate, and hilariously frank. I’m looking forward to reading more, and best of luck with the home/academic challenges you’ve been dealing with recently.
P.S – would love to see you post your natal chart w/or w/o current transits for the month. I think many of your readers are fairly well-versed in astrology and it might make it more of an intereactive experience. I find as I read your blog I often have insight or commentary – might be fun to make it more of a dialogue, or even just to illustrate more clearly what you are blogging about for those that may be uninitiated. Just a suggestion but thought it might be one you would like, o ye of Gemini Asc.

The CF of D (as everyone is now calling it) on your natal Mars makes a lot of sense- on the upside, it is a really powerful conjunction for spiritual pursuits such as astrology. I can see how falling on your natal Mars, it would really inspire a passion for it, and clearly you’ve just run with it since then, which is awesome. (And I find that in terms of seeing people for who they really are, astrology can be one of the very best tools for that.) As for breaking out of that wounding relationship, I wonder if that could be attributed to Pluto going retrograde about a month prior as well. I bet now that Pluto has gone direct again, you’ll be able to have a lot more perspective on this new Neptunian relationship you mention, so at least if anything feels foggy, you’ll be able to take it with a grain of salt.

My Venus is at 25 Aquarius, so yes, I believe we do have a Venus-Mars conjunction. Your Mars is also conjunct my MC and exactly square my Mars- so I’m personally very glad that we’re penpals.

I found you through a comment you left on ElsaElsa about my blog, astroloshop.com! I just wanted to say thank you for the kind words and let you know that I think your blog is wonderful too. I’m so glad I found it and will be reading you from now on!

Yay,

Meredith

I’ve just discover your astrology website and it is like fresh air between all the astro-mess on the web.
I have a stellium in 10th house (mercury, sun and saturn) so it was really helpful to read about your stellium with sun, mercury and venus.

Keep it up!!!

best and blessings – jennie miami, florida